Jeff is in Kuwait!
... and will probably be in California within 48 hours.
You might think I'm jumping up and down and freaking out, but honestly my system is sort of worn down emotionally after months of constructing elaborate coping mechanisms, and I just feel quietly happy. Simply happy. I didn't get a rush of adrenaline when Jeff told me he had arrived, I didn't scream and start hugging total strangers, I just thought, "Oh. Well. Good."
And truthfully I still don't believe it. Intellectually I understand that Jeff will be here soon, but emotionally everything feels almost the same (the difference being I feel much less worried about Jeff's safety now). I imagine it's like when you're expecting a baby or some other similar life event -- you understand that it's going to happen, you may even know the exact DATE it's going to happen, but you also understand that there's simply no way to emotionally prepare for what you're about to enjoy/endure. And no, I did not pick the baby metaphor for any particular reason, MOTHER.
That's all I'm going to say for now, but updates will be quite frequent from here on out. Yes, this is my third post of the day, but I would like to note that I am still technically not a psychopath because two of them were late-night entries last night.
I'm off now to clean the house. I'm having college friends over that I have not seen in quite some time. Considering the recent developments in the deployment scene, my friends can look forward to a very squirrelly me. My friend Eva said, "That's OK -- I like you when you're extra squirrelly!" Lucky for her, because I have a feeling that by tomorrow the news may actually have sunk in. Go go gadget squirrelly!
More good news to come ...
You might think I'm jumping up and down and freaking out, but honestly my system is sort of worn down emotionally after months of constructing elaborate coping mechanisms, and I just feel quietly happy. Simply happy. I didn't get a rush of adrenaline when Jeff told me he had arrived, I didn't scream and start hugging total strangers, I just thought, "Oh. Well. Good."
And truthfully I still don't believe it. Intellectually I understand that Jeff will be here soon, but emotionally everything feels almost the same (the difference being I feel much less worried about Jeff's safety now). I imagine it's like when you're expecting a baby or some other similar life event -- you understand that it's going to happen, you may even know the exact DATE it's going to happen, but you also understand that there's simply no way to emotionally prepare for what you're about to enjoy/endure. And no, I did not pick the baby metaphor for any particular reason, MOTHER.
That's all I'm going to say for now, but updates will be quite frequent from here on out. Yes, this is my third post of the day, but I would like to note that I am still technically not a psychopath because two of them were late-night entries last night.
I'm off now to clean the house. I'm having college friends over that I have not seen in quite some time. Considering the recent developments in the deployment scene, my friends can look forward to a very squirrelly me. My friend Eva said, "That's OK -- I like you when you're extra squirrelly!" Lucky for her, because I have a feeling that by tomorrow the news may actually have sunk in. Go go gadget squirrelly!
More good news to come ...
posted by Jennifer at 9:48 PM
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